My Brother Is Insanely Talented || February 2021

It's 12:09 am on Tuesday, and what I should be doing is editing my youtube video for tomorrow. 

By writing this, I've already basically decided that it won't be going up tomorrow (for a multitude of reasons which are alluded to by my excessive cursing at Apple Products about fifteen minutes before this). And a lot of the times, technology and I don't get along (I'm looking at you, Kindle fire, when you deleted my Minecraft city whilst I sat in Margaritaville, and you, my old mac mini that deleted my longest-running sims save file freshman year). And as I've become more consistent on putting out content onto social media, it's pretty frequent I have run-ins, and that's just going to be that, and there's not much else I can do except scream a little bit and continue on with my life. 

But, before I went to bed (because the constant conversion and failed exports of my video files are enough to put anyone to sleep), I checked my youtube notifications and came across something I hadn't really ever seen before. 

My brother was posting youtube videos. 

Let's backtrack here: if you know anything about my brother, you know that he's insanely quiet, very much kept to himself, funny (poignantly funny), and locks himself up in his room to do god knows what (my mom thinks it's drugs sometimes, but I always assure her that Hayden, my brother, is too much of a rule follower to do drugs. I'm right.) But, he's artistic, and always has been. Except, we never really know about what. My brother also loves video games and has always been the biggest fan of any Mario game ever, collecting the plushies, etc. 

So, upon seeing that notification, I smiled. 

This isn't a toot at my own horn, this next part, although you may read it to be one if you don't know really who I am or my relationship to my brother (whom I have always been insanely close with). But, I imagine it's probably really hard to be my sibling. I'm loud and stubborn, and I share everything about my life ever all the time. I'm ambitious, and I know who I am and what I want. 

Don't take this direction as "Emalee forced her brother to where he couldn't share anything" because that was never ever the case. My brother has always been one of my biggest fans, and I've always been his. It's how we work. I'm always so interested in what he does and what he likes to do. My parents are, too. My brother is just a more private person than I am. There's no reason for that- again, it's just how he always has been. 

But, he's never told anyone in my family that he's been posting videos on his youtube channel since October of 2020. That's before I started posting on my youtube channel. He's not told me, and certainly not my parents. It wasn't until I saw the white boxed out notification on my youtube bar that I truly understood what he did. 

Some of them have five views, others have none, still. But- and here's the best part- they're really fucking good. Like, really fucking good. 

He has a voice that fits perfectly for game narration and anecdotal storytelling. He doesn't speak fast to where you can't understand him (like I tend to). He picks soft and easygoing background music. It's edited and well-timed. He puts effort into it. 

And nobody knows. 

Again, like I said, my brother is a super private person, so I get that he wouldn't want to share this. But he doesn't even mention it. He doesn't mention filming a video, or that he posted something. he doesn't mention even what games he plays really. But, in his most recent video, he gave his crowd of five subscribers his plans for 2021. 

I'm not going to link his channel anywhere, I don't think I need to impose on what he's trying to do- it's not my place. 

But I want you all to know (all max readers of probably no more than fifteen) that my brother is going to be much more popular than myself, and I cannot wait for that to happen. 

He deserves every second of that that he gets. He's talented, and he works at it. And I aspire one day to truly do things sometimes the way my little brother does them. 

xx, Emalee